Karen M. Jantzi, CPC, CMEC
I felt alone and cut off from other women.
Our family had an international ministry, but even so, I was alone. I could not take my struggles to anyone. My discernment told me I was not safe and I was right. I went to God.
But, it was God that directed me to take the healing He was bringing to me to other women. Thus, Treasured Woman began.
I was not rescued from my difficult marriage. In fact, my husband left me with three children when I was very sick and almost totally bedridden. Not the miracle I was looking for. I thought my heart for ministry had to have been misguided and just wishful thinking. Surely, after going through a divorce and being so sick, I would not be fit to share Jesus and His message of restoration in the future. I had failed. What example was I? He would soon show me.
But, after a few months of mourning for my marriage before the Lord, healing started. And, as I listened for His voice, I would hear Him tell me my ministry had just begun. Surely I was wrong, but He continued to tell me my pain would truly end up my gain because I had taken my broken heart to Him to fix.
Today, if you feel the bitter sting of failure and are not sure that God can use you in any way, I want you to stop letting the enemy have your thoughts.
Jesus said He came to heal the brokenhearted. It was His mission. He came to serve. He became brokenness for us on His cross. The world looked upon Him hanging on a cross like a criminal, dying, and they taunted Him. He was God!!! They could have been vapor in a second, yet He endured it for the HIGHER CALL! It was His Father's Call to retrieve our lost life in the Garden that we had thrown away by sin. He made Himself a blood atonement for OUR SIN!
The world saw him as a failure, but He didn't care because He knew the real truth.
Do you know the real truth today about your life? Do you just see your failure hanging on a cross or do you see the reward of God for hanging on that cross? The choice is left to us. We choose. Are we the failure or the reward?
The very thing that is causing you to think you are unusable will be the very thing that qualifies you to be His chosen vessel if you give it to God. Go to Him. Lay your stinking thinking at the foot of His cross and ask Him to show you your worth and value. He will say, "Sweet One, your worth IS in the cross!" Resist making the self oriented decision that you are a failure and instead look to the cross of Christ to see just where YOUR FUTURE lies.
I'm sure glad I did. I would not have missed this journey for anything! He will bring joy for your sorrow when you totally rely on Him.
Much Love to You,