You cannot predetermine a belief based merely on one aspect of the evil in our world today.
Let me take this thinking one step further, and suggest that God DOES bring good out of evil. I know having experienced sexual molestation at age nine as well as battling choriocarcinoma some thirty years later.
I will suggest to you that God does allow suffering in this world, however, much good can come out of the suffering that we experience.
Case in point, at the very naïve age of nine, I entered my brother’s bedroom when a childhood friend called me in. It was not uncommon for me to play with my brother and his friends as we are twins and I was a bit of a tomboy.
What happened next was so traumatic to me, that I could not even think about it for the next thirty years. I “blocked” the incident from my memory.
The years after this experience were marred by a constant sense that I was dirty, that I was unworthy. My grades suffered as well as my sense of security in other people. After all, this was a boy who I thought was my brother. He took my trust and smashed it along with my innocence in one thoughtless act of selfishness.
Though my mom and dad are Christians, I had no concept of a protective loving God. Unbeknownst to them, I learned in church that God was a miserable, demanding tyrant. So, at the time of the molesting, I felt completely alone. My abuser threatened me if I told anyone what had happened.
Fast forward to my forties~ I have a family, a wonderful husband and had accepted the Lord as my savior. Many would look at my life and see a very blessed, happy homemaker with a full life.I have three beautiful daughters, and managed to bury my fears, raising them was the joy of my
life. Once in awhile feelings of unworthiness, fear, self doubt would kick in but, I just assumed that everyone struggled with these things.
At forty years old, my “normal” world came crashing to the ground at the sound of my doctor’s voice telling me that I had cancer.
Thankfully, and miraculously after three months of heavy duty chemotherapy, I was declared “cancer free”.
While God had delivered me from cancer, I could still not shake the sense of doom and gloom or the sense of being unprotected.At forty years old, there was still a sense of urgency in dark places, like parking lots and other public places. I had a morbid fear that someday I would be attacked and raped.
As these fears and panic attacks intensified, I attempted to resume some normalcy in my life. My doctors put the anxiety down to the chemically induced premature menopause that I was thrown into from the chemotherapy. All the while, experts were amazed by my quick healing and lack of side effects from the drugs.
A friend of mine approached me in 2005, four years after my battle with cancer. She asked if I would like to study biblical counseling with her.
As a result of studying the word of God and applying it to my fears, the memories of sexual abuse re-surfaced and the process of healing began.
I felt that I needed to deal with the irrational fears that I struggled with on a daily basis, as well as understand the word better while pursuing opportunities as an inspirational speaker.I wanted to be ready with an answer for those who had questions about why God allows such
tragedies to exist.
Today, I am free from the anxieties that plagued me through my youth, and I’ve been set free from any residual trauma of having been molested. I rarely feel afraid for no reason at all.And, I know a peace and a joy that I have not ever known before. It is a peace and joy grounded
in the knowledge that God is my protector.
The biblical counseling has helped me to encourage others through similar traumas. The world needs over comers to show others that though we walk through the valley of death , we can fear no evil.
It is possible because our great and mighty God is there to sustain us. He simply wants us to know him more intimately through the trials and tribulations that we go through.
God is a God of impossibilities. He has taken a broken little girl and brought her back to wholeness as a grown woman.Would I want to go through the trials and suffering all over again? No, probably not. But, I
can’t help but be grateful that God used these trials to help me experience him on a deeper level.
Our God is a loving Father who longs to comfort and assist us through life's dark valleys.
Sometimes we need to walk through the dark times to come to a greater knowledge of how deep and wide His love truly is.
Psalm 34: 4-10
4 When I needed the Lord, I looked for Him;
I called out to Him, and He heard me and responded.
He came and rescued me from everything that made me so afraid.
5 Look to Him and shine, so shame will never contort your faces.
6 This poor soul cried, and the Eternal heard me. He rescued me from my troubles.
7 The messenger of the Eternal God surrounds everyone who walks with Him and is always there to protect and rescue us.
8 Taste of His goodness; see how wonderful the Eternal truly is.
Anyone who puts trust in Him will be blessed and comforted.
9 Revere the Eternal, you His saints,
for those who worship Him will possess everything important in life.
0 Young lions may grow tired and hungry, but those intent on knowing the Eternal God will have everything they need.
After raising three lovely daughters, she is eagerly pursuing her love of writing Christian novels. Her first novel is a tale of suspense where a visionary's vendetta finds her on a collision course with her abuser. Stealth is a semifinalist from The American Christian Fiction Writer's Genesis
Contest in April 2014. You can read more about how God rescued her from fear in the paperback book Sweet Freedom With a Slice of Peach Cobbler.
Or, just drop on by and visit her website Supernatural Suspense for the Soul to learn about Truth Home a residential therapeutic home opened for victims of human trafficking. Learn how women
are being restored through the truth of God with your help!
You can reach Kelly at http://kellyliberto.com/